Just another Saturday.......................
Mood:  hug me
Now Playing: Eminem-puke
Topic: figuring out life........
hey everybody my life is going pretty good right now...wow tired write more 18er.

Liveing life....
Mood:  special
Now Playing: The tv...
Topic: Mixed emotions
Today was a pretty goog day. I woke up at 8:30 in the morning to 7 kids screaming in my ear. Which was parshally my fault because I slept on the couch.Anywayz when I got up I layed around untill 11:00 and then I got a shower. I was ready by 11:30 and I left with Angie Paulson. We walked around town then met up with colby and Kainoe. Then we walked to the park and around with them for a little while. Then we went back to the shelter and I got rapped, well no treally but sorta. Finally Angie went home and my sister came down to get me. She took me and Dani to Bilo so Dani cold get shit for dinner. I didnt want to go in with him but he made me. Then Coall called and he answered my phone. He old Coall that I was haveing sex right now that I'd call em' when I was done I got pissed and dani said. Oh we didnt yet but u know we are goina itz just a matter of time be right back...

Same old shit..........
Mood:  happy
Now Playing: Eminem....the whole cd............
Topic: Confused.....
Hey, whatz up with ya'll bitches!!!!I am feelin a little tired and alittle upset.. I have mixed feeliing's about Coall. I like him SO much but there is just something about him that scares me.. i think I know what it is but I dont feel like writeing it on here. But other than that things are goin Peretty good.Tawnia eh.. is Tawnia and everything else is everything else! I am pretty proud os myself because I turned "him" down afew times .. Everytime he asks me to do "something" with him I say no because I am going out with Coall and I am not a cheater. Oh yeah and there are these kids that just moved here from Harrisburg and he is so annoying he is a jerk.. I Tawnia thinks he is HOTT but ya I hope they never date becuase he is SO annoying and I couldnt put up with it for to long. well g2g bye

Happy but sorta.....pissed
Mood:  don't ask
Now Playing: The music in my head!!
Topic: Confused.....
Dear on line diary I had a pretty sucky day. I woke up sick and witha back up. To make a purfeccttttt start. Then I forgot Tawnias onnline diary password thingy AND MINE,hehe I am stupped. Then I found the peice of paper well my mom found it and i looked hers up first and read yesterday's and todays..WOW! I really wish I didn't though because she called me a slut like 100 times. And I really dont think I am. AND I dont get everything I want WHAT do I get besides Coall??? I mean jeese yeah she should be ahppy for me. because if it were her I would be! I was all excited because I met this kid Dani today from my sister's work and told him all about Tawnia he said he would meat her and all. So I was goina have her come over tomorrow but now I aint even asken cuz Coall is comin over and i dont want her to be all sad and mad becuase of Coall.oh well ...I guess.
Today was a good day however because I had fun after like 6:30 wes is here and the kids from my sisters work just left so it was pretty exciteing.. But I am goina go for now talk to you later!!!

Happy but depressed.............
Mood:  down
Now Playing: Nothing...
Topic: Mixed emotions
Hey everyone... wow today was such a mixed day... School was school, sucky here pretty kool there!!!Then after word I went to school it was fun at first me and Tawnia hung out with Coall practically all evening. It was fun untill the end. Because I feel SO BAD for Tawnia.. I think she is upset with the whole Gary thing.Whcich I feel horrible about that because it dosent seem like anything works out for her...though there is nothing I can do for that! I also feel like she is mad at me for some reason???? I don't know why she would be because i didn't do anythig wrong... The only thing is Coall ?? Because I am going out with him. I dont know why that would make her mad though because if she would have gone out with him she would have been happy and I would have been upset.. And vice verca.. So either way one of us would have been upset which SUCKS some MAJOR ass!! And I do feel really bad.. Anywayz I really wish I knew her eamil thingy because i want to know how she's feeliing even though I have been friennds wiht her loong enough to know sumwhat how she if feeling.!.!.!.!.!.
Yeah so I am going out with Coall and it is AWSOME the only thing that is weird is that the whole "HIM" thing. I can no longer mess around with him, because I am a strong believer that you DO NOT cheat.. Therefore I would never cheat on him which is alright with me it'll just be hard. Though I am always with Tawnia and she'll help me out cuz she's my home dogg!>>!>!> YEAH!! ahha anywayz I gotta go Bye!!!

The beginning of a Beautifal week....
Mood:  mischievious
Now Playing: The music in my head.....................
Topic: Mixed emotions
Wow so much to say so little time! Last night I went to sleep around 10:30. At 11:20 "HE" called me. We talked for 56 minutes and 58 seconds.
Today... today was alright. School started off boreing but then sped up after 5th period. I cam home and "HE" called me.. We only talked for a few seconds. He asked me to meet him at 10:30 tonight at the same church we met at before. I declined however. He said he would call me later on tonight. Saturday night was the beginning of a GREAT week I got laid behind the church and all. But anyways me and Tawnia had fun today we went to the YMCA and all!

More thoughts......................
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: Fabullous-So into you......umm lil flip-sunshine
Topic: Feelen pretty nice..
Wow it happened last. Me and Tawnia were just sitting at jacks when "He" came up and me to come over and talk to him. I got up and went over to see what he wanted assumeing it was money.Though it wasn't.He asked me to come to the church by Dollar General. So I did and Tawnia came with me. He told Tawnia to sit on the stairs so she did. Then me and "Him" went over around the corner. He sat on the wall and asked me to suck his dick. I started to but told him I only had 5 minutes. So he asked me if I wanted to fuck for a minute, I said yes.Then I slowly took off my pantz and lened againt the church wall. We sorta did it doggstyle for a while then but a minute turned into a few minutes, well I let him hit it from the back but I didnt get it... nevermind to much detail.Anyways then I layed on the ground which was covered with gravel. We did regular I guess for a while. He fucked me harder than I have ever been fucked before. I could feel my body going numb from being scared cold and feeling like a whore. Though I forgot about that when he got off and I had cum from my hip to my knee and trust me it wasnt all mine!!! Anywho we ended up haveing sum pretty good sex on the ground outside that church.After that me and Tawnia went to this rap thing at the Americna Leagion. After that I came home and then left around 3:30 with Tawnia and got pretty buzzed. Yeah we smoked so much weed I could barely move. We laughed and laughed for hours!! Well that was all I just thought I would add that in there because I didn't have enough time last night when I got home. I hope there is more good times to come with me and "him"... I'll keep you posted .. Later!!!

Just when I thought my life was almost over.........................
Mood:  lyrical
Now Playing: Nothing yet but it is goina be sumthin upbeat!
Topic: figuring out life........
Today I discovered alot about my life I never knew before.Wow sex... for me needs to be over with knew people. Meaning of that I dont wanna fuck anybody knew for A WHILE.. I dont really think I am a whore though sum might disagree greatly. I just think I lust for affection and I feel the only way to get it is by errection...Though over the past year I have discovered that is not the answer! BEcause I have slept with a few people now and only am still well I guess I can call "friends".with one of them.And seeing the age gap I dont see it worken out that way foor to much longer. In life in general is just dandy...FOR NOW! I wke up at 1:30 after a rough night of welll ya now.not sex though....And got int e shower, then I got a drink and went to town. I went to D&G and got sum necesities...Then I came home and chilled for a few.. Then I changed my clothes and went back to town. Then after a while of being in town I came home. However while I was in town I seen "him" also known as Bob. It was wanderfull... Well there's more but I am tired adn have sum shit to edit outta my web site.. So BYE!!

Don't Rain on my paraid
Mood:  sad
Now Playing: ~The music in my head~
Topic: Mixed emotions
Wow today was pretty cool but knida not at the same time..imagine that! I woke up at 12:30 after arough night of being pissed off at the world...I cam edown stairs only to find my house looked like a gigantic bulldozer just ran through it. Then turned a round and did a few circles right in the middle of it. So anyways my sister cooked me sloppy hoes and mac n' cheese for lunch I only ate one sloppy hoe sandwhich and a burrito though. Then I got in the shower. YES i do do that ahha doodoo! Teeheehee any who. After that I called Tawnia and invited her over for a nice night of crazy!!! As always... She came over and I decidd to take another shower because my hair was fucked up and I wanted to wear it crimnpy. So i did. After that we went for a walk. I ghaev Justin Powers back his cutthroat shirt. He gave me a nice big hug and I loved it. Then he gave me a kiss on the cheek though it's illigal I loved it . Despite Tawnias hate for him she wanted one to..she's crazy... I love her....Then after that we walked to the dollar gen. we were going to steal some good shit but there were to many peep's there so we just bought sum candy instead.. even though I clearly do not need it!! Then we walked up the hill and ate sum dinner ahha... NICE... Alittle bit after that we left with Jessica Vicklund .. She got a roast beef sandwhich at Arby's and dropped us off in town.. We saw Justin when we were sitting outside of Jack's.. NO NO..! UNfortunatley Jack is not sum 19 year old fine ass guy instead it is an old lady/man clothing store for old people who have nothing better to buy with there handicapped checks to go and wet them selves over.We talked to him for a while and then went for a walk... Tawnia had the chance to take a kalottapin spellings diffenitly off but fuck it.. haha butfuck haha though I siad mo becausedespite what sum might think I love her to much to see her do that to herself and not do anything about it. After that we walked to seee both of my brothers Jeremy and Omar (and sum others) rap at the American Leaguian.. yeah fuck that spelling to. WOW I say fuck alot.. O well it keeps me goin.. So fuck it!!! After that we took a long a nd painfull journey up my hill and into my house. When we got here we played sum Rummicube and waited for my sister to arrive. When she got here we ordered sum good ass food from foxes which ofcoyrse was shared with the rest of the ARMY. I didnt mind though because un like others I am not A Greedy BITCH!THen finally they left.. O yes when the real fun starts.. Me and Tawnia finished our food and then started watching tv I hwever decided to come wrtie a little sumthen sumthen in my Blig journle whcih will prob. soon be descovered by someone and I will prob. get in trouble for writeing A FUCKING JORNAL because like everything else nothing ever can just work out.. Though alot has lately been looking up for me and my BF tlicious.. Well I suppose I am going to go for now and coomtinue my journey through hell later.... So that way I can go sit and chill with hot mama' Tawnia and the boys.. dont worry there little boys and semming neither I nor Tanwia are Micheal Jackson nothing exctieing will be happining for them in less sleep is concidered exotic.. BYE

Begining of a long day........
Mood:  hug me
Now Playing: eminem-lose it
Topic: Just another day....
Journal-

Well it is only 4:11 but still I felt like writeing. I have cold down sum since last night. I regret some but few of the things that I said last night. But only the part about narking to the teacher because I would never do that. I am going to subway to eat then I a m goig to the mall and maybe the movies. Also last night my brother and Jacque went to jail. Jeremy is out now but jacque is in there for all this week. I feel so bad. She is dyen!!! Any wayz I will write more later for sure for sure but I gotta go call Tawnia. Because in a couple of hours we are going out to eat and shit. Yeah last night I was really mad at Tawnia and wrote a really bad journal but I earased it. Unfortionatlye I did not talk to "him" today. But there's always another day..Well I gotta go.Bye